i keep on second guessing myself ..am i running enough 20 mile runs (*1)? should i run another 20+ mile run? when do i start tapering (*2)? am i eating enough carbs? am i drinking enough water?
am i cross training enough? should i pick up the intensity in my cross training (when i start tapering)? am i resting enough? am i resting too much? AAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
*1 i will be running my last 20 mile run next Sunday (then start tapering) ... i may decide to do a couple extra miles (we'll see how i feel at the time).
*2 even though i am following a marathon training schedule for beginners, it's a little different than what my class is doing, and what i've read in books (and depending on the book you pick up you can get anything from a 5 week taper to a 3 week taper). i've added a LOT to my original schedule .. thrown in a few extra 20 mile runs, and a 24 mile run, i've also repeated core weeks (mainly those with the long run being 17 miles). btw, a big fat thank you goes out to all those in the runners and marathoners communities who have given me solid advice and support along the way! :) xoxo
speaking of support ..
since i'm getting none from my family (they think i'm crazy and to be honest i doubt they will show up to watch me run my first marathon), it came as a great surprise when a friend of mine asked if he could come watch me run!!! um, hell yeah, you can come watch me run!!! :)
in other running news ..
even though i skipped my tuesday run this week (due partly to my right hamstring and partly due to me going to the movies .. Maria Full of Grace), i had two of the best runs ever this week! usually it takes me at least 3 miles before i get into "the zone" ... not this week, i felt great from start to finish during both runs! and tonite, my stride was excellent! i felt like i was gliding :)
it's so easy for me to get discouraged, especially because i'm not the fastest runner out there. i feel like i should be XT harder, and doing more (miles), but i know that i'm doing the best that i can. i also know that my normal runs are a hell of a lot harder than most peoples (hills hills and more hills).